Verdant green fields punctuated with yellow petals adorn the landscape.
There is such a softness , even the ground is springy with moisture.
Indeed there has been a puddle in one street which has lasted for three weeks.
I cannot stop a deep throated chuckle as I encourage it to last longer.
Puddles are an unknown here.
The spring birds are out, the raw milk is so rich and creamy, the hens, well the hens , they are just laying so prolifically. Nature is being so abundant. In every glance, every breath, every sound there is the Divine expressing itself.
In the midst of this I suddenly felt stirrings in my heart.
And my friends that I have not hugged in person came to the sacred space deep in my chest.. Nina, Zoner, Bholonath, John, Tim, Scrap JJ. What a presence. How much love do I hold for you. What space did we truly meet up in that finds us all these years later still wondering, still caring, still wanting to hug the brother/sister hood.
The journey that we started on, found me taking suicidal chances in raising my children.
And for me a vital, vital part of being human is in raising consciousness.
I was open to the plants and their teachings.
Tao is a grower of food and herbs.
Cian is the rock of the earth and an artist and farmer.
Sage, well he is an alchemist and probably my great teacher. He had a particularly challenging journey in that at one point he was into crystal m----. He spent hours listening to Terrance McKenna and Alan Watts. Healed completely. Hermes is his inspiration. San Pedro his teacher and friend. Multi dimensional being.
Iona is alsmot grown is now a published poet, in two anthologies. Pushing to go to another school next year so I might step into Cape Town.
All those years my friends kids were excelling at really good schools. And all i was doing was growing herbs, baking bread and keeping the fires burning.
And did I mention that they are the most unspoilt human beings you will meet.
There were all those years when I really felt I had failed so abjectly.
Born into a world that had no culture, made no sense whatsoever.
Never learnt what i was meant to learn at school –like how to be successful in this world.
Always just looking and shaking my head. All I wanted was to have greater understanding to that it would make sense.
It seemed like I was not manifesting abundance because I was not in the vortex, or bad karma. The extreme financial hardship made me feel less than good enough or deserving.
Until it did not any more.
I have come to see how every single step, detour, fall down, elevation has been to lead me to the space where what I value most in my outer world is less stuff and greater simplicity.
Not in a cutesy, homely, cottagey way – just in the acceptance of what is present and the de=light in that presence.
Today I smelt the first jasmine of spring. Discovered a white lavender bush. Walked whilst singing sacred names, holding a whole lot of love in my heart for all who read these words.
Should you wish to hug just ring the bell.